Jessica: Rich. God beholds.
Once upon a time,
A boy I felt very fondly for
Jessica is beautiful.
The most beautiful
Boy I know
The most beautiful
Girl in the world.
The most beautiful girl
in the world.
And I smile quietly and feel,
My heart swelling into an aching
A strange pride
I have never felt before
In my 22 years as a Karen
For I am.
Despite being a small girl
with small hands
I don’t hold my coffee mug
by the handle but rather, firmly
with a flat palm against hot ceramic,
burning fingers tensed all the way to elbow,
metacarpal tendons shaking slightly,
sipping slowly, the coffee, black and scalding, the handle rendered
a useless decorative buttress.
Am I not afraid of dropping a hot mug of coffee on my feet?
A small-handed girl in a big-mug world,
does it not burn, sweetie?
Lips un-pursing, I smile cooly.
Sing, Muses, of the lust of Aphrodite,
who lives in the the swirling of milk in coffee,
who makes the world spin in sips of conversation
in muffled cafes, where things begin.
Sing, Muses for The Girl who caused the Trojan War,
who was fucking things up far before Menelaus
ever realized his wife was a cheating whore,
who made the mistake of asking for more
sugar in her cappuccino.
Sing, Muses of that baby goddess
who stepped on other’s lives with freshly-formed feet,
who didn’t look down to see the bronze ring
of coffee left on the table when the cafe closed
and a stranger helped her with her coat.
Muses, sing for my mother, Helen,
who grinds coffee beans with her hands
in the home of a younger man, and
who doesn’t hate the other woman,
or my father, who takes his coffee black.
Muses, sing for me, the daughter
who gives away numbers without counting
who visits many coffee shops and drinks lattes
bought by others.
Muses, sing for all the girls
who have caffeine addictions,
who leave wet rings on wooden tables.
Sing for the women with coffee stains on their togas.